Life's a bitch

People ask me if I post EVERYTHING in my boring life onto this blog? The answer is NO.
I feel like life is only exciting when you have some dark dirty little secrets that only I myself know off, not even my parents and my closest friends.
:D

Ahh wells, today CCA was kindda,erm,strange, i would say.
Though i dont know if that is really the right word to use.
But, oh wells,it was cos I wasnt playing cello but the bass instead.
And of course this came with quite a bit of objection.
Cos Audrey loves me too much to let me go to bass.
And wan chien loves me too much to stop me from playing one instrument that I really really love.[and one that I have been playing the past year.]


To wanchien,
its nice to know that there is someone there rooting for me and fighting for my rights.
But now, everyine wants thier own way and that really sucks.
Dawn is an MEP student.
SO WHAT??THAT DOESNT GIVE HER THE BLOODY RIGHT TO ALLOW HER TO KICK U OFF THE FIELD LIKE A FOOTBALL.
Think about this, if you asked me to get a bass when you are in sec one, I bet ill be walking out of the door thinking that you are one crazy woman.
While, Im NOT a MEP student, I no need to get that instru.
wells, think about this, she has to buy her second[or is it third] instru and that will be the bass, and she has to hire a lorry to bring it to school.
I know its kindda hard, but you just have ta sink it in.
The atmosphere in the room was so tense today.
Give everyine a week to cool off, maybe then we will come up with better ideas.
Ill soon be becoming ur DIRECT junior.
Isnt taht exciting?
Im trying to conveince myself.
I really dont mind bass, though I dont really LOVE it.
But really, I swear, I dont mind.

To dawn,
I dont think you will be reading this.
But hell, who cares, im just gonna get this offmy mind.
Thankyou alot for coming to cello.
Hope that you are making good progress.
I know what it is like floating and drifting between bass and cello.
Maybe we just have to see what goes on.
Maybe, there will be a suitable candidate and both of us dont need to feel sad any more.
No hard feelings ok?
:D

To Audrey and Stella,
Gosh, I cant believe that I actually **** in front of the QUEEN and ROCKER.[pukes]
Feeling good now.
Hope the air will clear. SOON.
ROCK ON.
:D

To liuyi and Shiyan,
I love you guys so much.
Thanks for being there when I needed a crying shoulder or alistening ear.
I love you guys so much im gonna go to school tomorrow and plant a huge sloppy kiss on your cheeks.
yikes.

I guess that sometimes its letting go and not holding on that really helps.
Im not very sure just where ill end up.
But im not going to let myself be upset at all these things.
Just hoping that one day I can wake up and realise that this is just a nightmare.

Life's such a BITCH.
I mean, really.

gsdfghdfg

Adults are funny creatures.
They talk and laugh.
Then the next moment they start lecturing ya on your lank of sense of urgency.
They are taking a real step when they say that they UNDERSTAND you.
They say that cos they say they have been through teenage years.
Then they should know that a girl with raging hermones will be better of when left alone by her parents.
I mean, i appreciate their love and all the shit.
But I just wanna be left alone sometimes, like when im writing my diary and stuff.
I hate it when you scream at me, telling me that im not being such a great daughter and how fantastic all my cousins are.
If you love them so much, go and be their parents larh.

They think im just a kid.
They say that I must take care of my dad.
I mean, like i wont.
With people hating each other in the family, am I supposed to close my eyes and see nothing?
Im also a person with thoughts and feelings.
They are not the only ones suffering.
WHY IS NOONE THINKING ABOUT ME??
Am i really so invisable?
Or isit that you just hate me so much, you dont even wanna talkto me?
I dont know.
I dont wanna know.